myworld(:

2007-04-30T03:59:00.000-07:00

Finally, the cooking part of F&N's over and done with.
I think that's like a major relief.
Thank god (and I mean literally) for a mother like mine.
Else, I think I'll be dead by now.

You know, I think I'm a very difficult person to live with.
Sometimes, I contradict myself.
Then I get very choosy and picky.
And did I mention how petty I can be?
Not to forget snobish and arrogant.
On the contray, I can be a really fun, person.
A real livewire (livewire, not wild-child. Note the difference. Like duh, there is one!)
So on the whole, I'm just an unassuming unpredictable person who'll blow her top and hurl really insightful insults at you, should you push the wrong buttons.
So mind your words. But then again, you don't really have to. I think.
See? Told you. I'm just downright unassuming.
The bottomline of this rant is, to all those who have managed to stick with me like rice paste, thankyou very much.

I think I should be less frank.
Sometimes I feel like I say things which hurt people, and I don't realise that.
Perhaps it's beause I'm not used to beating around the bush.
I'm working on that characteristic of mine.

Goodness, Aishwarya Rai is so gorgeous.
Anna and I were having this really interesting (and gossipy) chat earlier on.
She's fun. And funny. And alot like me (:
I think we can both be blur-blobs and have crappy convos all day long. =)
Especially about America's Next Top Model, Hollywood, diets, full-figures and etc;

I wanted to paint my nails.
But I forgot.
No, I din't forget to paint them.
I forgot what colour I wanted to paint them in.
God, just kill me.

Anyway, for now I think we all have better things to worry about then the colour of my nails.
Like the mid-years for instance?
Seriously.
DHIVVYA! FOCUS!
Right.

2007-04-22T23:59:00.000-07:00

Beyonce is gorgeous.
I can't seem to say that enough.

Anyway, since Aiah's on course and dosen't wana drive back so late into the night, Mum, Dad and I left for out destinations early in the morning.
Yeah, My parents and I are like THIS (does the Tyra Banks finger knotting move)
I wonder why kids these days are so embarassed about their parents.
I mean, sriously speaking, I think I embarass THEM.

School was (takes a deep breath)..
..okay..
I don't really like school.
No rhyme or reason, it's just like that.

Anyway, met Jo on the way home.
I want an ANIMAL bag and pencil case.
THEY'RE SO GORGEOUS!
Jo has promised to follow me to Vivo to get them.
But the brand's really expensive.
Oh well, the advantages being the ONLY child brings..

2007-04-18T02:46:00.000-07:00

Prelims Oral (English language) today.
I felt absolutely nothing.
No tingling sensation, no butterflies in my stomach, no fear, no glory that I aced it, no sense of relief, nothing.
Athi asked me how it went, I just shrugged, packed up and left.
For the record, I don't think I aced it.

My form did this thing today and for once the class was united.
She spoke of issues that surfaced, namely the racial and national discrimination.
I guess I've always been rather sensitive so people usually watch their tongue when around me, but I still feel very bitter hearing random remarks.
In fact, I snapped at this person in my class upon getting the opportunity because I loathed him to some extent in the past for being a senseless blabbermouth and firing words lossely.
I know I should be over it and technically forget everything, but I kinda find it hard to put aside something that has hurt me in the past before.
It's like, I want so badly to make that person pay for everything he's said in the past.

I'm agressive, which is a known-fact so why do morons provoke me?
Oh whatever.

Anyway, I had fun with Jes, Cheryl, Huijen and Xin Yi, blabbering away in the waiting room.
I mean, a HOT japense guy taking us for the real oral examination?
God-dammit, we're all roasted turkeys.
(:

2007-04-13T01:02:00.000-07:00

Your Sensitivity Score: 56%

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I flunked my English common test.
However I'm not depressed, In fact a little more motivated if that's possible.
I know I blanked out during the paper and that I din't bother.
Yet, I managed to score as I did.
I technically din't even read the passages and my summary wasn't even 70 words.
I guess Mrs. R knows that as well.
I'm really thankful for the mass of supportive people around me. (:

I just had a heated argument with a friend.
Yet, I feel some soothing sensation, it refuses to let me feel sorrowful.
I'm just.. happy.

I think my class poses as a huge dissapointment to all who believe, and distraction for the sincerely inquisive.
Why can't we just pull our act together?
Ok, being logical, everyone has their own turning point.
We can't force anyone to direct their enthusiasm towards something they couldn't care less about.
All we can do is hope they realise whatever before there's no turning back.

2007-04-10T11:21:00.000-07:00

A lent me her 'Size 14 is not fat' by Meg Cabot.
I don't usually read the Cabot woman, I think she's seriously lame.
No wait, she might not be, maybe just her story lines.
P.s, please do not sue me for my opinion(s).
We're all poor people ):

I think I'd better attach that last statement to all of my posts from now on.
Checked out the number of people who've been sued over opinions lately?
Geesh, It's like, if you're looking for a get-rich-quick scheme;
Just google your name and check out blogs that say stuff about you without the words 'I think' or 'In my opinion' in front.
Then, sue them.

Speaking of which, I'm anxiously anticipating the 6th Harry Potter instalment.
I've pre-ordered it, so I'll be the first few ones to read.
And then I'll tell you the storyline and spoil your whole semester. HA.
OK, whatever.

Anyway, N's just downright polluted.
She's been checking out asses all week.

I'm not going to school tomorrow.

I wanna watch THE NAMESAKE again.
BECAUSE IT'S SO SO SO SO SO SO GOOD.
(c:

2007-04-05T04:40:00.000-07:00

I am absolutely grateful.
I love Nisah.
I love her eternity.
I love her for her selflessness, for tolerating me, for caring and for bothering.
But most of all, I love her because she's got such a great impact in my life.
I love how she's genuinely worried and has such child-like innocence upon her.

I love my parents.
I love them for everything I can't even mention.

This is a thankyou post.
I am without a doubt one of the most blessed souls on the surface of the earth.
I love god.

Thankyou god, for everything.

We had oral today.
Mrs. Rethinem picked me to be her model.
I think I dissapointed her.
My conversation was too prolonged.
Let's just not hope I get this really hot, gorgeous guy as my examinor on the day of my oral.
Because if that happens and I'm made to speak about stress..
..Then I'm one DEAD DUCK.

2007-04-03T02:35:00.000-07:00

I don't feel burdened and heavy today.
In fact, I feel light and relieved.
I feel happy. Estatic actually.
I felt fear till up to the moment I reached home,
fear for all the impossibilities.
So I wondered why not it be me who turns all the negatives into the positives?
I was an optimistic person, till the clouds formed above my head and removed to go.
So I did.
I pushed away the negetive vibes.

Why don't you do your chores today and anticipate a peaceful tomorrow?
6 months to Os.
That's the best way I can put it.
So make it, or break it.
I'm gona' make it.

Make more productive use of your time.
The results will stump you.

2007-03-31T23:40:00.000-07:00

This is wrong.
This is very wrong. This is very very wrong.
What's happening to me??

I fell ill Friday night,
I slept through Saturday,
And I woke up one hour after noon today.
Oh my god, what have I done?
I've just cursed myself crazy; I've got 3 MT essays to write,
math homework to do, things to study, THERE'S A GEOG COMMON TEST TOMORROW AND THERE'S COURSEWORK!!
Lord, I need a miracle.
Grant me one please.

It never ceases to make me feel like an absolute failure.
I never seem to be enough.
Am I really not good enough?
I know people see me as this really witty intelLigent personna,
But that's not at all what I see in the mirror.
I'm constantly asking myself,
"What's wrong with you? Everyone in the family is freaking intelligent, where are you from? The sewers?"
My cousins topped/top RI , ok great, Let's have a toast.
I'm just not hard-working enough.

I know I'm good enough.
I'll make it.
I'll more than make it.
I'll touch the sky or dry trying.

Mum and dad, there's nothing more than I can ask of you.
Where else can I find such supportive, trusting parents that shower me in everything I set eyes upon.
My greatest fear, is posing as a dissapointment to you.
I promise. (:

2007-03-30T09:37:00.000-07:00

My future looks kinda bleak at the moment.
My grades have stopped keeping up with the momentum and my brain refuses to come alive.

My english results were atrocious.
Disgustingly horribly atrocious.
So bad that I felt I needed to burry my head under some sand-hole.
Yeah, it's extremely nerve-wrecking.
I feel like an uncanny dissapointment right now.

Anyway, I managed to get over that during math.
Of course, I pulled off another stunt one should never EVER attempt to do. More like never forget to do, actually.
I forgot to set my phone to sleep mode.
So it rang, loud and clear.
And the best part was I was freaking out, and perhaps due to the adrenaline rush effect, I couldn't key in the right bloody code.
But Mrs. Ko din't hear a thing.
I mean like, she either pretended to be deaf or is sincerely deaf.
Both work to my advantage, if you don't realise.

Speaking of my math teacher.
She reprimanded me the other day.
And she apologised (obviously because she made the error) afterwards.
Whatever. The damage had already been done.

I have an IQ of 182.
I fall under the 'superior intelligence' category.
Mum has an IQ of 204, she falls under 'very superior intelligence'.
I've got good genes, I totally know.

2007-03-28T05:39:00.000-07:00

The world is full of lost identities.
She puts up a front to hide herself from you, and you try to impress her by taking on the identity of someone you're not.

Somebody else..
around everyone else..
you're watching your back, like you can't relax..
you try to be cool..
you look like a fool to me..

2007-03-23T07:39:00.000-07:00

Dear Beautiful stranger,

Sports Heats was truly boring.
If you're yet to figure, I don't really fancy school.
But it's not like I have a choice, school's the only route that leads to the ultimate frontier.
I have to step on mile stones to reach out to my dreams.
And I've got big ones, mind you.
Ok, enough about school.

Had tution shortly after.
Sunday's going to be Prada day.
Anyway, I've just realised something.
That I'm blessed to be surrounded by people like them.
I mean, the word association game and the 300 funny trailer we laugh our asses off at- we're meant to be a team.
(:

Recently, I haven't been sleeping well.
It feels like I've been deceiving myself. Like I've been running away from realtity, which is something I don't do.
I think I know why I feel this way.
I need to do something.. Now.

I'm hungry for hot-dogs as of current.
Lord, please help me.

Taking a picture.. Taking a picture..

2007-03-14T08:03:00.000-07:00

Music and Lyrics

Do watch it if you're a hopeless romantic.
Also watch it, if you've got a thing for charismatic guys with quick wits.

PRISION BREAK season 2 premieres tomorrow.
Godddd, 23 more hours.
Why is the damn clock ticking away at it's own pace?

2007-03-13T04:44:00.000-07:00

Holiday class wasn't half as bad today.
I think my form looks better in jeans and a tee.
I mean punjab suits are gorgeous and all, but..
Well.. Yeap, that.
So anyway, I think I forgot almost everything concerning sec 3 geography.

Mum's on MC so Dad decided to take the day off too.
They dropped me at school.

I think the mantras are really doing me good.
I can read sanskrit and it's really awesome (:
No wonder Brahmin kids are as sharp as they are.
Technically, all Indian kids are supposed to be pretty smart.
Think Shakunthala Devi man.
"There are three types of movies in this world.
Good movies. Bad movies. And Indian movies.
We have a logic on our own, and I'm proud to be Indian"
- John Abraham

Haahaaha, Goodness, the heart-throb's got some seriously good wit.

I realised old habits die hard.
Hence, I WANT/NEED/HAVE TO GO TO KINO TO BUY MYSELF MORE BOOKS.
I feel so naked without them.
Books have always been my best friends.
Time to go book-shopping.